okay so where am i at?
Still with Master, things are a bit shaky but hopefull it will be worked through. After He slept with natalie I lost alot of trust and am finding it hard to enjoy any form of play.
Have been smoking too much pot, and am working my way up to quitting.
Amelie has decided to leave for awhile to be with a Mistress, sometimes I adire her strength so much...
Sarah as always, has remained my pillar of friendship through all the highs and lows...darling i can't tell you how much that means to me. You're all i have at the moment- thankyou.
I need a job, i need to get myself un-housebound, I need to get my system clear of drugs. But on the upside, I have grown a mucher thicker skin in regards to the poly relationship status. I'm not secure, but I know now how to shut off, so it cant touch me anymore.
And..seem to have awakened a new love/hate relationship with asphixiation. I worry that its not a fetish (for i recieve no sexual gratification from it) but a self destruction manifestation.
Than again..maybe i just think too much.
Plan for the next year is finish year 12...Somethig i think i now am ready to commit to and finally get on my way to becoming a psych nurse.
Also, Master and I have gone into buisiness with a subbie boy to produce bondage furniture. I am doing the deco and artwork :)
im so goth i dont paint my nails blck...i bash them with a HAMMER! - 2006-06-21
long time no see! Jen lives! - 2006-06-02
long time no see! Jen lives! - 2006-06-02
from LJ - 2006-02-14
back again! - 2006-02-11
